[PRE-BIRTHDAY CHRONICLES #3]

There are moments in life I can be at two places at the same time. Those juicy, alive, vibrating magical moments when there is all and nothing at the same time, here and there, feeling it all at once, being taken to the sky by the magnitude of the emotion rushing through my veins, insights and imprints, embodied presence, being more than I (think I) am, dissolved to the space around me…
And there are those other moments too, when it feels like I’m nowhere, when the contraction kicks in, focus is lost, meaning becomes just a word and all becomes nothing once again. Funny this life is, huh?

Birthdays have always been special for me. It’s the time of looking back, looking forward, readjusting, recalibrating, sensing who I’m becoming, where I am, where to next and what’s the point anyway.

With all of these questions open, with a lot of it unknown, aware I’m already in ceremony, these days I have been journeying with an absolute heartache missing the ones that I love, heart cracked open from the longings that I have and with an absolute joy of having all that I have. Two places at the same time? At least. No conclusion, just wondering today. In the midst of it all.

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